Sumpah gw ga tau lagi dimana tempat enak buat ngelampiasin emosi. Biasanya sih Twitter, tapi disana banyak orang kenal dan males aja soalnya Indonesians are fucking judgmental. I might swear a lot in this post, so be prepared.
Yesterday was my birthday, all I wanted was HER. She was fucking there to wish me a happy fucking birthday in the fucking midnight even though she wasn't the first fucking wisher. I've dreamt to spend the whole fucking night chatting and videocamming with her until fucking morning, that'd be great for a fucking birthday, right? But too bad, we only fucking Skyped for 1 hour. I was fucking upset and sad, but there's nothing I could do coz she never fucking wants to see me angry. Not even complaining, no I can't complain coz that would piss her off. I don't want her to be fucking upset. I'm grateful though for the 1 fucking hour chat.
I thought we could make it up for it, and I planned to fucking Skype at night with her instead and she said okay. But guess what, she went out with her friends (and HE was there too!) until midnight and that was already a different day. I'd been waiting since 9 for 3 straight hours until she finally came home. And the best part is, the 2 hours was actually defunct coz her phone's battery is dead so we couldnt really text each other, and I was left hanging worried and all. On my BIRTHDAY.
Today is the day after my birthday. She told me she would make it up for last night, and promised me to have a nice lovely afternoon Skype. But guess what, I've been waiting for exactly 3 hours and 41 minutes now but she doesn't come home yet. And it was my fault for waiting coz she said she didn't even fucking promise. I've been texting her but she doesn't seem to care replying.
The funny part is, if I told her how much I'm upset because of these, I'm the one who is wrong! And in the end, she will break our relationship (AGAIN) by saying a very classic quote,"You don't deserve me, you deserve someone better than me. Let me leave." And I never ever find it FUNNY.
No wonder there are very very few good guys around. This is what happens when you are being good, because bad things happen to good fucking people!!!
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